I don't remember if I blogged about this before, but when our dossier was first sent to Nadia's country, it sat there for 3 weeks waiting for the State Department of Adoptions to "re-open" so it could be submitted. That was very disappointing, especially since we put our paperwork together at break-neck speed. However, we quickly re-grouped and looked on the "bright side" of having a few extra weeks to get ready for such a momentous trip and subsequent life-changing event in our lives.
Fast forward to this morning as I awoke in a state of excited anticipation knowing that we'd be hearing this week as to when our SDA appointment would take place--which would then determine our travel schedule, etc. I even noticed that another family who was submitted the same date we were had received their appointment date--Yippee!! Congratulations to them and to the little girl they're bringing home!!
Imagine my surprise and crushing disappointment when I found out that the SDA is requiring another document to add to our dossier in order to give us our appointment date. After bursting into tears and seriously considering crawling under my bed for the rest of the day (with Starbucks of course), I remembered what else I woke up with this morning...
A song that I woke up humming and continued to hum, up until I received this news. A song that reminded me, once again (Yes, I'm a slooooooooow learner), that this adoption is so "out of my hands". And even though "I don't understand" why these delays keep happenning when there's a child who so desperately needs to be in our home instead of languishing in a crib all day without love and a family; I'm once again needing to rest in the arms of the One who does know and be willing to trust "where He's taking me" in this adoption journey.
Are there still tears and disappointment today? Oh yes, they're flowing freely and our homeschool day was "blurred" at best. But God can handle that and He's the first one to offer His comfort...and His all amazing Peace. And to show you (and me) how generous and specific God is to His children, especially when they're hurting, He had a friend show up at my door (who had no idea this was going on) with none other than that dreamed-of Starbucks! :)
So, I'll leave you with the words of this song by Matthew West that I woke up humming this morning. Perhaps I'm not the only one who needs to be humming this today. (I would have loved to put a link where you could click and listen to the song but I'm Miss Non-Techno Gal!)
There you go changing my plans again
There you go shifting my sands again
For reasons I don't understand again
Lately I don't have a clue
Just when I start liking what I see
There you go changing my scenery
I never know where you're taking me
but I'm trying just to follow you
It's out of my hands
It's out of my reach
It's over my head
And it's out of my league
There's too many things
That I don't understand
So it's into your will
And it's out of my hands
There you go healing these scars again
Showing me right where you are again
I'm helpless, and that's where I start again
I'm giving it ALL UP TO YOU!
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Chin up my friend! Nadia will be placed into your arms and family on just exactly the day that God always planned to place her there...not one single moment longer than His planned day and time to place her with you.
ReplyDeleteGreat song and lyrics for me, too, today!
Wish I could have shared a Starbucks with you this morning! Thank you for the time yesterday. And for the prayers.
I'm so with you!! Another day... another empty mailbox. My day is a total wash - my kids are upset with me and I am ready to give everything up and watch soap operas all day!!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry. We have rushed around get last minute documents with nearly every adoption-- no fun. Keep your eye on the prize!
ReplyDeleteI know I emailed you, but I couldn't resist posting as well.
ReplyDeleteGod keeps bringing to mind in this instance that delays are not delays to Him. His plans are always purposeful - weaving together the intricacies of all our lives, all our stories, all our endings.
God is never late - though I know it sure feels like it from our side, doesn't it!
I can't wait to see how this bump will figure into the beautiful picture that He's writing in your life right now! Love ya!
Great song lyrics and so fitting for your news of the delay........guess it's time to sing "Trust and Obey" since we all know there is no other way. The perfect day He has chosen for you will come and it will be sooo good!!! :)
ReplyDeleteUgh.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to deal with the disappointment when you want something (or SOMEONE) so badly.
It just plain stinks!
So after being mad and sad and all that, you gotta pick yourself up and dust off and look forward to your time coming...It WILL be here soon, but for your mama's heart, it seems like it should be NOW, right?!
Hang in there.
Amen. I could have used this blog post when we lost Tori. God is good and Hid plans are perfect and BIG and wonderful!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI love the lyrics to that song! YOu have such a wonderful attitude that just shines through the darkness! We really dont know but it is for Glory and HIs. All you Fergusons are so GREAT and He will bless you all through this.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I know how hard those delays are. I know you will grieve it and move forward--but today is hard. As another commenter said, God is not late--this isn't a delay to Him because He has the story written already. It's just a delay to us and it can be so hard--especially when others are not delayed and we get left behind (BTDT!). Big hugs...and wish I could bring you a Starbucks.
ReplyDeleteAw man! Thats such a bummer! Well, at least you know you are doing everything as fast as you can in order to get Nadia! Great song! Immediately when I was reading this post, another song came to my mind. It is called
ReplyDelete"My Life is in Your Hands" by Kirk Franklin.
HERE IS THE SONG!!
ReplyDelete"MY LIFE IS IN YOUR HANDS" By: Kirk Franklin
You don't have to worry
And don't you be afraid
Joy comes in the morning
Troubles they don't last always
For there's a friend in Jesus
Who will wipe your tears away
And if your heart is broken
Just lift your hands and say
Oh
I know that I can make it
I know that I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
With Jesus I can take it
With Him I know I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
So when your tests and trials
They seem to get you down
And all your friends and loved ones
Are nowhere to be found
Remember there's a friend in Jesus
Who will wipe your tears away
And if you heart is broken
Just lift your hands and say
Oh
I know that I can make it
I know that I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
With Jesus I can take it
With Him I know I can stand
No matter what may come my way
My life is in your hands
Oh the disapointments bite. I know they do. I am so very sorry, but i can tell you know GOD is in control and he does have a wonderful plan. I can not wait until you get your travel dates !!
ReplyDeleteOh Kristin, I'm so sorry about this latest delay. I know how frustrating and devastating it can be. (Our son's adoption that was supposed to take one year ended up taking two and a half.)
ReplyDeleteI love those lyrics. It's neat how God can minister to us through music.
Thanks so much for your sweet comment this week. That is perhaps the kindest comment ever posted on anyone's blog! I love hearing the story of your special flowers named Josi and Nadia. You were one of the families I was thinking of when I shared my story of tulips and daffodils. Your obedience humbles and inspires me.
And thanks for the honor of being added to your blog list. What a privilege it is to be included!
I can't wait to see what God continues to do in your family. Praying for Nadia to come home soon!
Much Love,
Kathie
so sorry about the delay! I hope the new item was easy to get and you get your appt VERY soon!!!
ReplyDeletehugs
I still love you heaps and heaps and heaps :):):):):)
ReplyDeleteStill here, still trying to find my brain (which is most probably packed in a box somewhere), and still trying to get myself motivated to pack my suitcase all over again!
Aaahhhh, life is good...and I have not forgotten about your lovely blog, dear friend.